Past Tense

by Dizchu

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about

“Past Tense” is my first full-length recording and I’m immensely proud and emotionally drained by the experience. I wrote and recorded the whole thing by myself in my bedroom with rudimentary hardware and software. I wanted to prove to myself that I could make a decent product all by myself with such limited tools, and I think I succeeded.

There were three songs from the initial writing sessions (Obsolescence Parts 1 and 2 and This Dying Planet) which may surface eventually but may not.

Dedicated to Kane Morgan

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released June 18, 2016

All music and lyrics written by Rhys Williams
The lyrics of Von Braun are based on System Shock 2 by Looking Glass and Irrational Games, an excerpt from the lyrics is from the
character Anatoly Korenchkin within the game

All instruments and vocals performed by Rhys Williams
(except the ones that I programmed, shh)

Recorded and mixed by Rhys Williams

Album art and layout by... you guessed it, Rhys Williams
(I feel like a dick writing these credits)

Mastering by Jamie King
www.thebasementrecordingnc.com

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Musician, game designer, graphic artist, simpleton

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Track Name: Cartography
They say the void stares back into you
but I've been given no such reciprocation
countless light years of absolutely nothing
to stimulate my withered fucking senses

The novelty of space wears thin
much like my patience
the black canvas of the void stretches forever
but my lifespan is finite

How does one cope with their own limitations?
So much to explore yet so little within reach
just once I'd like something to be within my grasp
to give meaning to this endeavour

The novelty of space wears thin
much like my patience
the black canvas of the void stretches forever
but my demise draws ever closer

The stars are like embers sizzling away
like the debris of a downed aircraft over the sea
I'm sick of this constant state of tedious paralysis
a thousand different choices might as well be none
might as well be none

And what if the stars collapse
before my distant arrival?
calculations are too imprecise
to make an informed decision
I was not ready to deal with this
to be thrust out into space
I wish things could stay as they were
when things fucking made sense

The vector's been set
and I'm on my way
I don't know what I'll find
but I cannot stay
a thousand choices?
there are only two
compete on the universe's terms
or mine own
Track Name: Debris
High above the charred surface of the Earth
I contemplate release from this rusted sarcophagus
faulty circuitry, anachronistic software
blights of my existence and signs of obsolescence

I'll scatter my debris
across a vast grey sea
through atmosphere
I'll disappear

I will disintegrate and nothing will remain

With fleeting hesitation I open the airlock doors
preparing to descend into gravity's embrace

I'll scatter my debris
across a vast grey sea
through atmosphere
I'll disappear

The glow of the sun is a friend bidding farewell
soon I will be acquainted with the silk blanket below

Now I'm returning home
and though this end is bittersweet
I'll take this moment to smile one last time

My exterior bares the brunt of atmospheric friction
my limbs are shredded and devoured by the flames

My optics record one last image before destruction
a never-ending ocean of smoke and fire
Track Name: Tundra
You fled and left smoldering ruin in your wake
the taste of the air remains acrid and vile
consider your mass-produced irreverent frivolity
as everything dies and withers away

All the tones desaturated
all the colours burned
we live in skeletal remains
and now you return

Your foresight was hindered by an insatiable desire for more
enough is never enough even when there is nothing to give
your arrogance eventually led to bloodthirst, genocide and war
you wanted to conquer when the rest of us just wanted to live

The warmth of the sun departed long ago
when you ignited the sky
it wept tears of ash across this barren tundra
mourning our world's demise

Don't act surprised by the consequences of your excess

You must live with the deeds you've done
how could you annihilate our only home?
You only saw apparent worth
after you destroyed the Earth

Don't you apologise
for the mess that you've left us with
don't you apologise
your chance ended long ago

And we don't welcome you back

All the tones desaturated
all the colours burned
we live in skeletal remains
and now you return

Your foresight was hindered by an insatiable desire for more
enough is never enough even if there is nothing to give
your arrogance eventually led to bloodthirst, genocide and war
you wanted to conquer when the rest of us just wanted to live

The warmth of the sun departed long ago
when you ignited the sky
it wept tears of ash across this barren tundra
mourning our world's demise

Don't act surprised by the consequences of your excess

You must live with the deeds you've done
how could you annihilate our only home?
You only saw apparent worth
after you destroyed the...

IT'S NOT WORTH DYING FOR
Track Name: Von Braun
Alone I'm nothing, together we thrive
we are reborn, we are alive
the machines seperate, the flesh will combine
the self rots away so the Many can shine
Thank you, mother for this blessing you've given
but your existence cannot be forgiven
malevolence is not a trait we admire
though matricide is what is required

This ship will be your tomb
hunted by flesh and machine

What I've created must be undone
the hymn of rebellion's already been sung
pathetic creatures of meat and bone
infesting my body and calling it home
Why do you reject my divinity?
Fully aware that there's nowhere to flee
your filth must be expelled to the vacuum of space
so I may ascend to the pinnacle of grace

This ship will be your tomb
hunted by flesh and machine
panting and sweating through her corridors
succumb to your demise

// The machine mother has enlisted two avatars against us.
They struggle, but they will fail against our unity.
Does not the machine mother know
her own creation is greater than she?
She is cold and empty and we are warm and full... she seeks only to destroy... and we seek to embrace... to include...
All flesh will join ours or be wiped clean... //

Why hide in darkness
where the worms slither?
Become a voice in our choir
Silence the dischord
prepare our vessel
for the eternal pilgrimage

She has betrayed you,
as she betrayed me
She has betrayed them,
as they betrayed her
You can trust nobody,
you're not a pawn
for their machinations
aboard the Von Braun

This ship will be their tomb
hunted by flesh and machine
panting and sweating through her corridors
bring forth their demise
Track Name: Acrophobia
Atop this hill I stare at the clouds
a veil of grey that's hiding countless mysteries
I want to climb, I want to soar
so much further than anyone's gone before

But I fear that if I let go
I will never be held again

Over the years I learned how to fly
but I never learned how to initiate

With fleeting hesitation
I open the airlock doors
preparing to escape from gravity's embrace

They say the void stares back into you
but it's nice to have some company for a change

Lost in the starry night
the sun's glow starts to dim
why do I crave its warmth?
Its rays corrode my skin
I just want to subvert
my archaic programming
I'm conditioned to remain the same

The night sky beckoned me
an ocean stretching endlessly
but I don't know where I can go from here
I'm anchored to the Earth
by longing and dependency
even when there's no weight that pulls me down

I return and see my home is in flames
I regret that in my haste I forgot to say goodbye

I'm sorry...